Behold! A hot cocoa I can eat. Let me refresh my followers’ memories by saying I am terribly allergic to dairy (lactose free foods too), soy, gluten and eggs. I found this hot cocoa mix in the no frills gluten-free side across from the coffee and stuff. All you need is 2 tablespoons of said mix and the alloted almond milk, heat and mix and voila! I jazzed it up with a little chipits dairy, soy and egg free chocolate chips, rice whip and a little organic brown sugar. Keep your eyes peeled. I’ll be posting the brand of cocoa mix and chocolate chips online soon.
So I really don’t like the taste of celery, kale, radishes or anything without some kind of meat. I’m trying something new where I cut my meat intake about 65%. One meat every other day or if it’s that time of the month, it’s half a meat serving a day. My weight is about the same surprisingly but it’s a lot easier for me to bounce back from little sleep. Needless to say, I made this bean salad as just a stir-fry. Full recipe to come later tonight. Gotta run!
You chant, you pray, you hum, you sing,
Fast, lent, donate and even lend a helping hand,
Anything, all the time, nothing for you, everything for them,
You give and hope,
Wish for, yearn and want,
Until low and behold,
Not what you asked for, just a shell of the image you had in mind,
You have to liven it up, compromise, work with what you have,
The lower your standards, the better the chances.
Nobody is perfect and finding anyone close isn’t worth it.
By now you’ve got the hook in the fish’s neck.
Time to make your meal.
Too bad he’s a little smaller than you expected,
Not enough to quell your need to feed.
I always thought this would happen. That there would be this sense a species–our species lost its power, it’s strength and its mind as a collective. This year…rather, in the last 12 months, human have committed mass genocide, environmental rehab and looking for habitable planets! I saw the potential will still had. Then it hit me. Everyone carried on life around me making no difference to the world. Now I see. Mother Nature’s not the only one turning tides and tables. The animals are taking more chances. Something is changing. Llamas wandering the streets and fooling around, a tiger at Disneyland just minding its own business, no human in mouth. Even the white snowy owl flying closer and closer to the West? To more civilization?
At least this is what I thought from THAT moment on.
A lot has changed. And I plan to do more.
A little gurgle,
Turns to cramps,
As my face starts to itch,
My legs start to twitch,
They spaz and hurt,
But no matter how hard I knead them,
No matter how much I stretch,
The pain still lingers, A constant.
Then comes the nausea,
The uncomfortable floating head,
Makes me feel my brain further away from my heart,
I worry, I must be dead,
I look down to ensure I am still attached,
Silly woman, everything is intact,
But to my horror, the dry skin creeps over me,
Like the darkness turned Skywalker to Vader,
I run to my roommate,
“MY FACE IS BURNING, MY LEGS AND ARMS TOO!”
She says to my dismay, I see nothing on you,
In essence, the empathy not forced,
Just a sideways glance, and an “Oh! Little bumps, of course!”
I return to my room, thinking to will the pain away,
The only thing that happens, is I keep the tears at bay,
Until slowly as the final two reactions take place,
I must run to the washroom, relieve it all,
Yet no matter how many times I go,
The sense of urgency and cramping marches on.
Working in offices the past 3 years has gotten me nowhere. I have tried to move up the ranks past office assistant and administrative assistant within small companies. It never works out. I was open to taking classes to upgrade my skills and was informed that no such thing would fly. I have aspired to become a narrator or involved in documentary production for years but never had the gall to move forward with such a thing. Now I’m in a program that I love, that pushes me to succeed and I genuinely feel I could get amazing marks in. It’s funny once you realize the career you want, how far you’re willing to go to achieve that goal in the most efficient way possible. Professors and classmates alike have different aspirations but YOU have to know what your desire is out of the program: to succeed and have the career of your dreams. I always dream of petting and videotaping animals in their natural habitats, albeit dangerous or unconventional for someone in the journalism program to strive towards. With a sociology degree and eventually a journalism diploma I believe I can incorporate most societal norms into other wildlife and document the similarities or differences.
For example, some species, such as spotted hyenas and elephants lead a matriarchal society while lions protect their territory and fight off other males. Male emperor penguins endure freezing cold conditions while mothers venture to fatten up to feed their soon to be born young. I plan to eventually go back to school to get my Master’s in Sociology and a minor degree in Biology so that I truly know every aspect there is about wildlife. I want to venture to Thailand, India and Africa to work on their reservation projects, interacting directly with tigers, monkeys and various other animals. Some may say these are unrealistic goals but they are mine and mine alone. I will not have my dreams dissipated by someone who claims to be “realistic”. I have never been a conventional person…a sheep. I’m rebellious, emotional and passionate about the environment, wildlife and people as a whole. My goals will become a progressive reality beginning this summer. It is said that if you visualize and “Law of Attraction” what you want, it will happen. I have been doing just that and increasingly chanting Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo to unleash my inner buddha; my inner ability to take control of both the positive and negative in my life and use that to bring about great and beneficial change. And as it begins…I am loving every pain-staking minute of it.
Passing through life,
Settle for someone less than perfect,
That guy or girl that will make your toes curl,
Isn’t the greatest looking or the best at cooking,
That list of what you want gets smaller and smaller,
Your confidence now, the size of a peanut,
Happy anyone will settle for you,
It’s stupid, it’s wrong, you haven’t got a clue,
Throw out the list, burn the pros and cons,
Just make sure you get along,
Think about the smell, the smile, the voice,
The laughter, same humour, agreeing with each choice,
A calm attitude, friendly and flirty,
Not selfish or materialistic, cares about being happy go lucky,
Never to be stuck in a rut or a job for too long,
Stay with me and our choices will be strong,
Build you up and never tear you down,
Because bitches like that don’t deserve you,
It’s a good thing you were found now.